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Friday, April 29, 2011

reality check

When I agreed to a year service as a Lasallian Volunteer in Racine, Wisconsin, I imagined flat land, cows, and a population of Caucasians. What problems could there possibly be in this small, Middle America town? What service could I possibly provide to people who were probably living pretty comfortably already?
Upon moving to Racine, I realized that I could not have been father from the truth. I live along a river, among many hills, have yet to see a cow in my neighborhood, and spend most of my time working with students and parents of Hispanic heritage. There are a countless number of families who struggle on a daily basis in a variety of areas, for a variety of reasons. And while there are families who live comfortably in my neighborhood, the majority do not.
Each day, I spend my time working with students from the impoverished areas of Racine at John XXIII Educational Center, an after school tutoring and mentoring program. John XXIII provides supervised study hall time, one-on-one homework assistance, college preparation opportunities, and safe social activities for the students that we work with.
At first glance, many would label our students. These are the kids who become statistics by being teenage parents, will spend their whole lives working minimum wage jobs, and will ultimately spend the majority of the lives fighting to make it. Some of them will get involved with drugs. Others will be arrested. And the majority of them are “trouble makers”.
Despite the judgment that is passed on these students, I am convinced that these “trouble makers” are actually some of the most creative, hard working, and entertaining students I will ever encounter. Lucy and Marcos have an incredible talent for drawing. Fabian can always make me laugh. Althena has questions about everything. And Edwin can build or fix anything you ask him to.
    The sad truth is that these students will face judgment and social injustices more regularly throughout their lifetime than I will. My time working with each of them has exposed me to many social injustices and has given me a new knowledge and perspective about the reality of their lives.
Many of our students face the challenge of being undocumented. This means that they have difficulty getting jobs, using government funded programs, accessing basic social services, and receiving education benefits at the collegiate level. Their families will often neglect to follow through on everyday tasks for the fear of being kicked out of their homes or, in the worst situations, out of the country. This also means that many of our families face the struggle of being separated from their loved ones, who are often in Mexico, without the ability to visit them on a regular basis.      
Our neighborhood isn’t necessarily safe. There have been instances of violence and crime right within the surrounding area of John XXIII. Many of our students live in the same area as John XXIII and, because of this, our students must always keep in mind that where they live forces them to be extra aware of their surroundings all the time. 
Most of our students come from homes where Spanish is spoken all the time. The children in the family are bilingual because of their enrollment in school, but often struggle to read and write at grade level because of their lack of exposure to the English language at home. Parents are literally unable to help their children with homework because of their inability to read, write, and understand the English language.
Additionally, many of our students are faced with extra responsibilities and pressures at home. A large number of our families own their own businesses and stores. This means that most of their days are spent working or managing others. These businesses are their livelihoods and many of our parents are forced to spend the majority of their time focusing on being successful at work so that they can be successful at home. Often times, this forces the children in the family to take on extra responsibilities in addition to their school work, which may include working, babysitting younger siblings, or serving as a translator to assist their families.
The long and short of it is that our students take on responsibilities that many adults would shy away from. They sacrifice living a “normal” childhood because of the social injustices that they face each and every day. They are unable to apply to have their first job because they don’t have a social security number. They can’t play outside because it is not safe. They don’t like to read because it is a difficult task. And they often have to sacrifice spending time with their friends because they have extra responsibilities at home.
As someone who had no first hand experience with these difficulties before my time as a volunteer in Racine, I feel lucky to have the opportunity to live among my students, share in their difficulties, and better understand social injustices that many people face on a daily basis. As I move forward on my journey, I know that the best thing I can do for these students is give them the consistency, love, and guidance that they often lack at home. It may not seem like a lot, but I know that even a little bit can make all the difference to these students!

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

so what happened?

from about 8th grade, i can always remember wanting to be a doctor. what kind of doctor i wanted to be often changed, but i was convinced that i was going to eventually go to medical school and practice medicine. in high school, i spent my extra time volunteering and being involved in extra activities so that i could get into a good college, and in college, i spent my extra time being part of organizations that had to do with pre-med stuff, volunteering, and spending time observing and working at doctors offices and hospitals. i even spent a tonnnn of money and a bunch of time studying for the mcat. which i ended up deciding not to take.

so what happened? i was doing everything "right". i followed all the steps that i should have to be on the right track. and then i just decided that it was all wrong. i could have easily cracked down, studied hard, taken the mcat, and applied to medical school. but i distinctly remember at one point during all of this, thinking about what i was really passionate about and how i could really use that to do something worthwhile with my future. and it wasnt being a doctor anymore.

of course we need doctors and it is a great profession, but it just wasnt for me. especially with the changes in healthcare that were being proposed, i just felt like i would be working for a big company. i would be at the mercy of insurance companies and wouldnt really be practicing medicine the way that i pictured a doctor always did. someone who never studied medicine would be telling me what medicine to give someone and how to treat someone based on if they could pay for it. and thats frustrating to me!

so i was back at square one. now what? combine my interest in science/health care and do something to fight the frustrating "system" that is currently in place. public health! great- i can combine what im good at, what i like, and still do something worthwhile.

but what all that time i spent volunteering and studying and making sure that i was checking off everything i was supposed to be doing so that i could go to med school? sometimes i think about it and feel like i wasted a lot of time and a lot of effort getting ready for something that i ultimately didnt follow through on. its a little dissapointing, but i dont regret it and i think that says something. i really believe that it was "time well wasted" if there is such a thing. knowing what you dont want to do is just as important as knowing what you do want to do, and while it took me a while to pinpoint exactly what that was i am thankful that i have a clear idea now. 

my whole experience in racine has made me even more aware the flaws in our health care system and the need for more advocacy of these benefits. i am thankful that i have had this time to learn more about and reflect on where i see myself heading in the future.

in other news....
spring break starts this thursday and i couldnt be happier to have some time off! i am going to head to minneapolis to visit lizzy and erin, who are lasallian volunteers at a high school there. it should be fun to get a change of scenery and visit a new state. happy easter!

Sunday, April 17, 2011

the boss man

this past thrusday, brother alvaro, the superior general (aka the brother in charge of all brothers) was in chicago. he has been traveling around the us visiting all the sites and ministries that have a lasallian presence and asked that the volunteers near and around chicago spend some time with him talking about our service experience.

desiree and i drove up to chicago and 7 of the volunteers from chicago were also there. brother alvaro gave us each some time to talk about how we got involved with the lasallian volunteers, what we do at our different minstries, and how this experience has been for us so far. he asked about our communities and what we find to be the most rewarding aspect of the work that we do.

brother alvaro talked to us about how in europe it is difficult to find young people who are willing to dedicate a year to service and he thanked us for all that we do at our ministries.

it was really nice to meet brother alvaro, even though it was only for a short time. i had always heard about the superior general, but this time i actually got to meet him! its nice to know that he takes an interest in what we are doing and although he lives in rome and cant visit each of our ministries individually, i really did get the sense that he has a genuine interest and respect for the work that we do which is always encouraging! 

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

glamour girls

for the past 4 weeks, i have been running a group each tuesday during the school hours called "glamour girls". it is for 14 8th grade girls at preparatory school, which will be followed by a second round of the same group for 13 more 8th grade girls. the group is designed to allow the girls a place to discuss "girl stuff" as they are getting ready to transition from middle school to high school. and a way for a school that has absolutely no health curriculum to inform their students about things they need to be aware of. 

the center has a had a glamour girls group in the past, so i was able to borrow some ideas from there, but most of what i am doing i was able to create on my own. its been a fun project for me to explore the health education side of things and get me to try it out in preparation for looking into public health in the future.

when we first talked about starting the glamour girls group with the girls at the school, i thought it would definitely be a challenge, especially after hearing what my mom had to say about how i was in middle school. 14 girls who are 13 and 14 years old in a room with someone who is not much older than them talking about "girl stuff". awesomeeeeee, recipe for disaster, etc. etc. etc.

but as these 4 weeks have passed by, i couldnt have been more wrong about it! i really love tuesday afternoons when i get to work with the 8th grade girls and have really enjoyed my time with them. we have been able to talk about self esteem, healthy relationships, peer pressure and alcohol, and teen pregnancy so far, and i think that it has been going really well. the girls seem to be interested and have been asking really good (and hilarious) questions about all the topics so i am happy with it. we still have two weeks left, which will be spent talking about gossip and bullying and an end of the group party.

especially this past week, the girls really helped me remember why i am doing what i am doing. i feel like giving the girls a place to ask questions and feel comfortable talking about things that are often pushed to the side really has made a difference for them. one of the girls has even reached out and asked to talk on an individual basis about some things that she is dealing with.

so today i am thankful for these 14 8th graders and their presence in my life. i am looking forward to continuing to work with them and to also be able to work with the other group of 8th graders coming up. tuesdays might just be my new favorite day of the week!

Monday, April 4, 2011

just what the doctor ordered

happy april! i cant believe that we are already into spring (even though mother nature refuses to think so!) and heading towards the end of the year!

this past weekend i was lucky enough to have 2 lovely visitors in americas dairlyland! toph and dinorah came to wisconsin on thursday and stayed until yesterday. it was so so so great! i have missed them so much and it was nice to be able to spend some time with my partners in crime :) we celebrated my community "birthday", (finally) got tattoos!, and went on a brewery tour...nothing too terribly exciting but it was exactly what i needed right about now.

i have been itching for spring break and REAL spring weather that will last for more than 48 hours. i will even admit that i have not necessarily looked forward to going to work as much lately. i still love what i do, but we havent had a break since christmas and IT IS TIME!! the kids need one too...trust me! 

i decided to take the bus to minneapolis for easter break to visit lizzy and erin, two other lasallian volunteers. i thought about going home, but airfare was a little pricey. my mom offered to help me pay for the tickets, but i am really trying to challenge myself to live within the stipend that i get while i am here. lizzy and erin both decided to stay in minneapolis for easter and i do want to visit all 50 states at some point in my life so i figured why not?! plus the round trip bus ride was only $30 which is most definitely within my budget! :)

not much else is new here. i am ready for the next 3 weeks after my little pick me up with my visitors. and i will be home soon! june 9th...mark your calendars people!