so here i sit with only one week left living in wisconsin! i will admit that i have put off writing here for a longggg time because i honestly havent had the time or inspiration or ability to really put in words how i have been feeling about moving on from my life in racine.
there are moments when i am completely ready to move on and i find myself focused on what it will be like to teach and live in ny again. and then there are other moments when i wish that i had more time to stay here. and i will admit there have been times when i have asked myself if maybe i should stay in racine longer.
for someone who began this journey with many doubts and apprehensions, i think i have come a pretty long way! i have grown to love what i do and the students i work with and the community that i live in. i have invested a big part of myself in the center and the work that it does. i feel a sense of accomplishment for leaving something better than i found it and really feel passionate about moving forward with a drive and mission that i found through my experience in racine.
im most definitely not the same person that i used to be but i am proud of the ways in which i have changed and am excited to move on to the next chapter. it would be unfair for me to take the opportunity of this experience from someone else. it is time for me to move on and for someone else to have a life changing and life giving experience with the many wonderful people in racine!
a big piece of my heart will always be here. this is the place where i became passionate about education and have found my calling for the future. while there have been many ups and downs throughout my experience, i wouldnt trade it for anything else. i am thankful for all the successes, mistakes, reality checks, challenges, and laughs that have come along with this journey!
i havent cried about leaving yet, but i am sure its coming- i suppose its only fair to both begin and end my journey in racine with tears! :)
Friday, June 1, 2012
Sunday, March 4, 2012
Sunday, February 26, 2012
skatetown!
on friday, we took 13 of the kids on a roller skating field trip as a reward for our incentive program. the whole thing completely reminded me of when i was in middle school! and yes i did roller skate with the kiddos :)
the kids loved the trip and it was so nice to see them just be kids! they were able to do something that is completely normal by my standards but not so normal by some of theirs. most of them had been roller skating before, but it was still nice to take them on a trip that they may not have had the opportunity to go on without us taking them.
in other news...spring break is quickly approaching and i am pretty excited to have a week to do nothing. although doing nothing will include getting my taxes done, ordering my bridesmaid dress for this summer, and studying for some certification exams i have to take for teaching for next year. this weekend i am off to stl for a retreat for the lv program and then it will be break time for me.
time is going by quickly! i cant believe its almost march already!
Friday, February 3, 2012
roses and thorns
i havent really been super motivated to blog about anything specific lately, but i thought a short lists of highs and lows that have been going on recently would be nice...
roses:
thorns:
more roses than thorns, life is good! :)
roses:
- its almost the weekend!
- my pandora was ON POINT allllllll day today
- starting this month, i will visit have visitors at least once a month until april...yippeee!
- i finally got my reimbursement check from work today
- im relieved that i finally have a solid plan for next year and am anticipating the exciting new challenges that the next step of my journey will present
- i got my hair cut for $2 today- thank you gateway technical college beauty school
- warm weather in january...i dont hate it
- a group of students that i work with as part of our outreach program asked to make a presentation and host an event about what they learned from our group to their classmates- sometimes what we do really does get through to them! :)
- my to-do list is almost empty
- i really honestly LOVE what i do and the people i interact with on a daily basis
thorns:
- i feel like january flew by! and im nervous that the rest of this year will speed by too!
- lots of the kids are struggling with working on division and im struggling to find ways to better help them with
- im not getting my taxes done until march, but i want my refund now!
- people who dont take things seriously
- even though i know that i am going to be doing nyc teaching fellows next year, i have to wait a few weeks to find out where i will be teaching/going to school and i am IMPATIENT!
more roses than thorns, life is good! :)
Sunday, January 22, 2012
we have work to do
this week, brother mike shared this story with us. it is related to martin luther king day of course, but i think that is has so much more meaning and should be shared all the time, not just in honor of mlk!
"some years ago, i visited a middle school in denver. the ocassion for the visit was a martin luther king day assembly. when the assembly was finished, i was surrounded by a dozen or so students. one of them, an african american young man who looked about 13 or 14, sidled up closer to me and said, "dr. harding, ive got a question to ask you." with an interesting combination of boldness and wonder, he asked, "if dr. king knew that he could be killed at any time, why didnt he just back off? why didnt he just chill out for a while?"
as i stood there, considering how i might share with my young friend the reality of martin's committment, courage, and compassion, a young woman who looked about the same age as the questioner moved in to my aid. "what do you mean 'chill out'? dr. king couldnt chill out. he had work to do."
there it was. the word. for them, for me, for all of us, especially in times like these, when it seems so much easier to chill out, to back off and away from the hard, sometimes dangerous work of challenging the racism, the extreme materialism, and the materialism that threaten to undermine our best possibilities for creating a humane, compassionate, and nonviolent democracy, king's kind of place. so the word continues: we have work to do, not just to celebrate, admire, and praise him. but, like him, we have work to do, to be."
-vincent harding
from martin luther king: the inconvenient hero
after we were done reading this story, we were asked to reflect on how this story and the story of our center may interesect. for me, this was such an easy question!
my work in racine has inspired me to pursue education as a career. it would be easy for me to use my degree in chemistry to do something else and probably make lots more money doing it. the thing about people who study science and are decent at it, is that they dont go into teaching because there is more money almost in any other job. so what we are left with are mediocre (at best) science and math teachers and students who cant find any way to connect with the subject matter or develop an interest in the very area that we need people to become competent in.
so yes, while it may not be easy and some people may question why i would choose to go into teaching after spending 4 years slaving away learning about areas of chemistry that i didnt even know existed, this is what i have decided.
i have been accepted to the nyc teaching fellows program for june 2012 and will begin my work in education this summer! i know that this next chapter of my journey may not be easy and will definitley test me as an educator and an individual. i want to make my mark in the world of education and am excited for my opportunity to do that to begin this summer.
we have work to do and it begins with the education of our youth. and i have work to do...it begins with me taking the first steps to becoming a caring and quality educator!
"some years ago, i visited a middle school in denver. the ocassion for the visit was a martin luther king day assembly. when the assembly was finished, i was surrounded by a dozen or so students. one of them, an african american young man who looked about 13 or 14, sidled up closer to me and said, "dr. harding, ive got a question to ask you." with an interesting combination of boldness and wonder, he asked, "if dr. king knew that he could be killed at any time, why didnt he just back off? why didnt he just chill out for a while?"
as i stood there, considering how i might share with my young friend the reality of martin's committment, courage, and compassion, a young woman who looked about the same age as the questioner moved in to my aid. "what do you mean 'chill out'? dr. king couldnt chill out. he had work to do."
there it was. the word. for them, for me, for all of us, especially in times like these, when it seems so much easier to chill out, to back off and away from the hard, sometimes dangerous work of challenging the racism, the extreme materialism, and the materialism that threaten to undermine our best possibilities for creating a humane, compassionate, and nonviolent democracy, king's kind of place. so the word continues: we have work to do, not just to celebrate, admire, and praise him. but, like him, we have work to do, to be."
-vincent harding
from martin luther king: the inconvenient hero
after we were done reading this story, we were asked to reflect on how this story and the story of our center may interesect. for me, this was such an easy question!
my work in racine has inspired me to pursue education as a career. it would be easy for me to use my degree in chemistry to do something else and probably make lots more money doing it. the thing about people who study science and are decent at it, is that they dont go into teaching because there is more money almost in any other job. so what we are left with are mediocre (at best) science and math teachers and students who cant find any way to connect with the subject matter or develop an interest in the very area that we need people to become competent in.
so yes, while it may not be easy and some people may question why i would choose to go into teaching after spending 4 years slaving away learning about areas of chemistry that i didnt even know existed, this is what i have decided.
i have been accepted to the nyc teaching fellows program for june 2012 and will begin my work in education this summer! i know that this next chapter of my journey may not be easy and will definitley test me as an educator and an individual. i want to make my mark in the world of education and am excited for my opportunity to do that to begin this summer.
we have work to do and it begins with the education of our youth. and i have work to do...it begins with me taking the first steps to becoming a caring and quality educator!
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
my life is normal
sometimes when i think about where i am and what i am doing, i cant help but wonder how it has worked out. i have had a pretty easy and "normal" life. i grew up in a house that supported me, valued education, and spent time together. i went to school and college. and i have never really had to struggle to the degree that some other people have to on a daily basis.
most of the students i interact with each day don't come from a place like this. they live in a house and neighborhood that is not always safe with people who are not always setting a good example. some of them spend their time in juvenile centers, while others of them are constantly fighting the pressure to be in a gang. some of them don't have basic english skills, are grieving the loss of parents, both physically and emotionally, and a few of them become teen parents.
when i sit down and think about it all at once, its overwhelming. how can someone like me, who has had an easy, run-of-the-mill experience with life, possibly even come close to understanding and connecting with people, especially kids, who have lived more life in 11 or 12 years that i might possibly live in an entire lifetime?!?
i think its so easy to get caught up in dwelling on the fact that many of these kids dont have it easy. and that life isnt fair is dealing things out the way it does. i think its easy to say you feel bad for someone who has had these experiences or feel like you need to do something for someone who hasnt had it so easy. but i also think doing these things and feeling bad for these kids is probably one of the worst things that i could do for them.
its true that many of their situations are not ideal, but they are still kids who act like other kids. they like the same things, act the same way, and make the same mistakes. so why should i treat them any differently? these kids are not their situations- they are smart, funny, creative individuals who have bright, happy, and successful futures ahead of them!
it really is an incredible thing if you think about it- how people from all different places and backgrounds and age groups can really understand one another and grow to develop meaningful relationships. my experience has proved to me that there really is something common that ties us all together and i really dont have the words to express how thankful i am for having the opportunity to learn this from this experience.
when i think about this, i also cant help but give these kids credit. if i were them, i am not sure that i would be as welcoming or open to a stranger like me coming into their lives. i definitely have not had the same experiences as some of these kids, but they dont seem to mind, and i am BEYOND grateful for that :)
most of the students i interact with each day don't come from a place like this. they live in a house and neighborhood that is not always safe with people who are not always setting a good example. some of them spend their time in juvenile centers, while others of them are constantly fighting the pressure to be in a gang. some of them don't have basic english skills, are grieving the loss of parents, both physically and emotionally, and a few of them become teen parents.
when i sit down and think about it all at once, its overwhelming. how can someone like me, who has had an easy, run-of-the-mill experience with life, possibly even come close to understanding and connecting with people, especially kids, who have lived more life in 11 or 12 years that i might possibly live in an entire lifetime?!?
i think its so easy to get caught up in dwelling on the fact that many of these kids dont have it easy. and that life isnt fair is dealing things out the way it does. i think its easy to say you feel bad for someone who has had these experiences or feel like you need to do something for someone who hasnt had it so easy. but i also think doing these things and feeling bad for these kids is probably one of the worst things that i could do for them.
its true that many of their situations are not ideal, but they are still kids who act like other kids. they like the same things, act the same way, and make the same mistakes. so why should i treat them any differently? these kids are not their situations- they are smart, funny, creative individuals who have bright, happy, and successful futures ahead of them!
it really is an incredible thing if you think about it- how people from all different places and backgrounds and age groups can really understand one another and grow to develop meaningful relationships. my experience has proved to me that there really is something common that ties us all together and i really dont have the words to express how thankful i am for having the opportunity to learn this from this experience.
when i think about this, i also cant help but give these kids credit. if i were them, i am not sure that i would be as welcoming or open to a stranger like me coming into their lives. i definitely have not had the same experiences as some of these kids, but they dont seem to mind, and i am BEYOND grateful for that :)
Monday, January 9, 2012
first update of 2012!
so its been exactly 2 months since i last wrote something for this blog, which could be a new record for longest time it has taken me to update! so for all of you have been anxiously awaiting an update, here it is...
i was able to go home for christmas and new years for 2 weeks which was a great little vacation and time off. i got to see my family, some friends, and do nothing for a good portion of my break, which was really nice. its always good to go home for a while and see everyone, but it is also nice for me to have some time away from the center. i always find that i can do my best thinking about and reflecting on something when i spend some time away from it!
i am still waiting to hear back from the programs i applied to for next year so that i can start to actually plan a bit more for my life after racine. i have gotten some updates from them that sound pretty favorable, but many of the programs have to wait and hear about what the current teachers are planning on doing for next year before they can make any decisions going forward. so im still waiting...which i will admit that i am not very good at!
this weekend i am heading to albany for the lasallian volunteers midyear retreat. i have never been to albany before, so i guess it will be nice to finally see the capital of new york? and if nothing else, it will be nice to connect with some of the other volunteers that i havent seen in a while and get a change of scenery!
being back in racine has been good and i am happy to be hanging out with the kiddos again. they are cute and funny and make me laugh, so i cant complain! i am staring more outreach groups this week and helping out with some grants so i have plenty of things to keep me busy and out of trouble :)
2012 is off to a good start and i think it will be a great year! here are some things i hope to accomplish for 2012:
thats all for now- hopefully my next update will be in less than 2 months! :)
i was able to go home for christmas and new years for 2 weeks which was a great little vacation and time off. i got to see my family, some friends, and do nothing for a good portion of my break, which was really nice. its always good to go home for a while and see everyone, but it is also nice for me to have some time away from the center. i always find that i can do my best thinking about and reflecting on something when i spend some time away from it!
i am still waiting to hear back from the programs i applied to for next year so that i can start to actually plan a bit more for my life after racine. i have gotten some updates from them that sound pretty favorable, but many of the programs have to wait and hear about what the current teachers are planning on doing for next year before they can make any decisions going forward. so im still waiting...which i will admit that i am not very good at!
this weekend i am heading to albany for the lasallian volunteers midyear retreat. i have never been to albany before, so i guess it will be nice to finally see the capital of new york? and if nothing else, it will be nice to connect with some of the other volunteers that i havent seen in a while and get a change of scenery!
being back in racine has been good and i am happy to be hanging out with the kiddos again. they are cute and funny and make me laugh, so i cant complain! i am staring more outreach groups this week and helping out with some grants so i have plenty of things to keep me busy and out of trouble :)
2012 is off to a good start and i think it will be a great year! here are some things i hope to accomplish for 2012:
- take a real vacation this summer
- save some money
- be better about updating my blog (i hope!)
- read more
- grow out, cut, and donate my hair!
- use spanish more
- become a morning person
thats all for now- hopefully my next update will be in less than 2 months! :)
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